Kundalini yoga can change your life! A personal sharing from Jaya
From a very young age, I have felt a Loving Presence in my life. My first memory of this was when I was 4yo. I had an experience of Jesus sitting at the end of my bed. This Loving Presence has remained with me throughout my whole life.
I felt troubled when I was young. I felt like an outsider and I didn’t have many friends. I used alcohol and cannabis to self-medicate uncomfortable thoughts and emotions. When I was 22yo, I was diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome and I was very depressed with my 2yo daughter. Life was not good.
I was unhappy and very keen to make some changes. I started reading books from Louise Hay and Wayne Dyer. I was having an experience of the positive affirmations that Louise Hay suggested I say in the mirror and write in my journal everyday.
In 1993, I came across yoga and the classical spiritual text, A Course in Miracles. I knew within my heart that these practices would help me. I started a daily spiritual practice and immediately my life was changing. My relationship with myself and others were starting to heal. I experienced a healing from chronic fatigue and depression. Daily yoga and spiritual practice became connection points to the miracle and my Divine Self.
I let go of yoga for a long time. I should have stayed with it as I’m sure it would of prevented my relapses. I would occasionally relapse on alcohol and cannabis. During these phases in my life, I would not experience the miracle. Depression came, and went again. By 2007, alcohol and cannabis let go of me. I noticed that the usual crowd of drinking and drugging friends left my life. I met new ‘clean’ friends. I starting going to parties that had no alcohol or cannabis!
In 2011, I lost thousands of dollars in a bad investment. I nearly lost my house. This was a turning point in my spirituality. I became A Course in Miracles student full-time and went to live in a spiritual community.
I thought it would be all love and light. Although, when you really go for God, sometimes all your stuff can come up in your conscious awareness to be healed. This was a very lumpy and difficult time. Lots of support, love and healing were happening.
I fell in love with a man from the other side of the country, Perth! 5000 kms away! I left the community to live with this man that I truly loved in my heart. Well… I was still in some sort of spiritual emergence, although being away from all that I knew and the support of the community, my experience soon became a spiritual crisis or dark night of the soul. Every single feeling that you can imagine was coming up. Intense emotion, mystical experiences, and deep depression. Bipolar symptoms can be normal on the spiritual path.
In 2012, I ‘accidentally’ discovered Kundalini yoga (KY) when I was traveling in India. I had a very deep experience with KY from the very first class. I so loved how KY made me feel. I loved breath of fire and I loved the music. I had been a seasoned ‘chanter’ for some time, so I felt right at home with the mantra. It all touched me very deeply.
The effect it has had on my life is profound. Kundalini yoga helps me to get out of my busy and worried head and into my body. This style of yoga helps me to feel present and grounded. I can take a step back from the mind with all of its ups and downs. I have become a ‘mind watcher’ I feel identified with my spiritual strength. My mood is balanced most of the time and I don’t feel any need to self-medicate through substances. I’m clear in my mind and I’m happy most of the time. And physically, I feel younger and healthier. I have a lot more energy and I have lost a lot of weight.
The key for me is daily spiritual practice – sadhana. A daily date with my infinite self – Yay!!
Kundalini yoga to me is more than a physical practice. The body helps me to slow down the thoughts, feel present and gets me into my heart. KY offers me a sense of self-love and acceptance. It helps me to be clear and present with whatever is happening in my life. It offers me direction and purpose so I can see the opportunities in the middle of problems.
Love, love… Jaya
Jaya offers life transformation programs and Kundalini yoga classes in the Fremantle area.